Lost. Lost everything. Lost hope. Nightmares every night. Nightmares while awake. On the ledge.

Dark. Dead. Lost. No peace. Going to take that jump with her.

Dancing to forget.
Moving to lose oneself.
Wanting to die.
Staying alive to torture oneself.

To hurt.

Make the physical pain as painful as possible so the emotional will fade to the background.
It doesn't work.
Try harder until it does.
Harder.
Harder.
It doesn't work!

Dance faster. Quicker. Harder. Faster!
It wont stop.
You can't hide from it.
It's always there.
It wont leave you.

Stop dancing when you can't breathe.
When your lungs burn.
When someone has to hold you up.
Then keep dancing until you pass out.
Then keep dancing until you sleep forever.